Another suicide bombing has happened inside of Israel. These cowards never cease to enrage me. Any military combatant willing to take civilian life is a coward to me. If they had simply gone after the military, that might have been another story. But instead they are seeking to go against the civilian populace. The war never ceases to end.
(changing topics) I saw former mayor Rudolf Guliani speak at the RNC in NY and he was pretty funny. Although Senator John McCain was "toned down" a bit, Rudolf was full of laughs and much practical sense. He is supporting President Bush (as well as many democrats) because of the current climate in the world today. Kerry is very "wishy washy" and with much of the political climate going on today, I would not want him dealing with issues like:
And finally I just want to world to know that I am enjoying my stay home. My sister and my niece came over to visit (I have not seen them in 3 years) which is great because I got to catch up on what is going on in their lives. That is my life thus far. Selah!
(My niece on a horse and my sister in the water...Selah!)
So, it is another day. I am officially 21 as of yesterday, and I feel the same as when I was 20. Ghetto, isn't it?
Anyways the republican convention is going to be on TV tonight around 9 pm and I think that I will probably go and watch it. I would put it on an "Audio Blog" but you can check out one of my blogger friends for that (blogsforbush). That is all for now. Selah!
It is funny how and what things can make us offensive. Some people are easily angered by opposing political views. Others by a simple traffic light. I became enraged after attempts to integrate "Track Back" within my blogger (which almost ruined my entire site). If the Lord had not given me patience, I might have punched a hole in the wall.
(Disclaimer: I do not know this girl)
Today I went and visited a dying friend of the church I attend. Although I did not know him, I was taken back by the compassion and the obvious impact the man had on the youth. Although we got lost on the way there (which is okay with me because we all survived) the thing that was pretty cool was that most (if not all) of the youth group was there--which is something you usually don't see everyday.
Well, on a random note, today was my birthday and it came and went with no one noticing (well, my old sister core did as well as God and some of my family members as well). This is okay with me. I never really liked birthday parties that much (too embarrassing for me).
I have come to realize that I miss many of my friends at Teen Mania. I miss our in depth conversations about God, politics, our future plans and how we were not going to let our lives count for nothing, but actually get involved in society and do something about our current status as a nation.
I am not going to make this another political Blogger--at least not now. I have seen many sites ranting and raving about who they love and hate (Bush or Kerry) and quite frankly I am getting tired of it. I am glad that people (even younger ones) are passionate about politics. They should be. Politicians affect their world and only a fool would refuse to open up their eyes to what is going on.
But what I think what we need to focus on is helping our neighbors get ahead and serving the community. Getting caught up in great causes are great (and we should be apart of something bigger than ourselves) but if that is all we do than we are like clouds without rain, venting our enormous power and strength but refusing to help the "fields" of humanity beneath us. Isn't that our original purpose, to give out a helping hand towards humanity?
If anyone is interested, if anyone out there cares, I would encourage you to check out Activist Chat who are trying to bring about more awareness to the Iranian cause (click here). I would encourage you to not just simply "join" the association, but simply find these Iranians on Blogger and encourage them as they try to deal with their political environment (which is full of restraints). That is all I have to say for now, and if anyone out there is still curious as to where I stand, all you have to do is simply check my affiliations section. Selah!
So, tomorrow my sister is coming over (whom I have not seen in over three years) along with my niece and perhaps my eldest brother. I am excited for them...and can not wait to find out what adventure awaits all of us. Selah!
So guess what the Lord blessed me with? 5 Gmail invites! I am still debating on who to give them too, but I can think of a few names...I haven't given them to anyone yet...but time is running out...I may start giving them out in a couple of days...who knows. Selah!
Well, yesterday I tried to leave another web service called Xanga which is easier to set up than Blogger, but is not as "free" or rather it is not open source.
Well, as a surprise today I have a Gmail Invite in my mail box. I was also able to find out that approximately 5.7 million people around the world have Gmail, and the number could grow to like 40 million when it goes public. I am thinking about giving it away to a friend of mine...she has been seeking an account for a while. But only time will tell (if she emails me back I will...but she has not yet--so the offer might still be open)
On a happier note, my oldest brother (whom I have not seen in a decade or more last I recall) and my sister are coming over to visit me. I am very excited to see both of them and to find out what is happening in their lives.
On a final note, I think one thing God is teaching me is simple obedience. Basically just obeying in the small things with a whole heart. Much of it is helping others, and being a blessing to them. As odd as it may sound, these are some of the biggest things I struggle with (although most people wouldn't guess). I was never like this before I met God, which is funny because I use to loathe people in general. Now I just like them in general. Oh well, I better post on people's bloggers before they get upset...so that means...Selah!
So today was kinda cool and interesting. I was able to find a home church to go to--it is a friendly place and the people there are very generous. The best part is that despite the size everyone seems to genuinely care about each other and the situations with each other. I almost attended another church instead, but I felt that the Lord was leading me otherwise so I stayed with the one I had planned to all along. The other church was a Baptist denomination, and although they had many cool opportunities within the church, it was not the best option for me (for reasons I will discover in the future. Lesson learned: Don't let the good become the enemy of the best.
I also might have the opportunity to work with some "HTML." I have been testing much of it on my Blogger, and I hope to perfect it in order to make the church website more appealing. That means I have much work ahead of me to accomplish. Selah!
So currently I am seeking a job right now. Funny, I have been home for less than a week and I am already looking for something to do. I started out looking at the hospital, but since I have not completed my Associates, I will not be able to receive the pay that I desire.
So yesterday I decided it might be pretty cool to work at Wal Mart...so I recently went and applied for a job.
So I was just a little nervous (aren't we all at the future) so after a quick prayer I filled out the electronic application on the computer and Selah...the waiting period begins.
The Lord also showed me something interesting in my Higgaion. It is a verse in Isaiah that says:
"Fear ye not, neither be afraid: have not I told thee from that time, and have declared it? Ye are even my witnesses. Is there a God beside me? Yeah, there is not God; I know not any."
He was basically telling me not to worry about the future, that it will take care of itself. After all, is he not God? Shouldn't he worry about it? I am thankful we have someone to pray to up there. I will see how long this one is answered, as I am about to begin the first Phase of my life outside of the internship.
My sister is coming to visit (along with my niece) so that should be exciting. Life may have it's ups and downs, but there is nothing more rewarding than an adventurous life...Selah?
"The LORD will perfect that which concerning me: thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever: forsake not the work of thine own hands."
It amazes me how the Lord is orchestrating my life right now. I have flown home from Texas, and I am in the Carolinas right now. It has been about four days and the Lord is already lining up a job for me! That is exciting to hear and know that he is still answering my prayers--even outside of Teen Mania. Although he is teaching me obedience to his word, it encourages me to know that with obedience comes blessing, and that he is still looking out for me. Selah!
"The LORD is gracious, and full of compassion; slow to anger, and of great mercy."
"The LORD is good to all; and his tender mercies are over all his works."
Well, this is a random thought, but the Lord was wanting me to get a hair cut. Now why would the God of the Universe want me to do that? I don't exactly know, but I think he did not like my nappy fro that I have been growing for like a year straight. The problem with this situation was that I only had $7 and the hair buzz would cost $10 (which means I would be potentially be in debt). So what did ------- (Hidden Nook) do? I simply asked my brother (which I loathe asking for anything simply because that would mean I would owe him a favor) so I swallowed my pride (a humbling experience and asked if I could borrow $3. He surprisingly gave me the money immediately as soon as I had my head chopped (the hair rather) not only did I come out looking like a million bucks, but in the mail a radio station was giving out $6 for free for me to fill out a survey (which is odd because I don't listen to the radio. How phat (slang for pretty high and great) is that! Selah!
"The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth."
"He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them."
This is something that I am learning more every day. The more I dwell in truth, the more I abide by his ways, the more he desires to pour out that blessing upon me. I love the Lord, he already is choosing my path (aka opening opportunities) for me in life. The plans that he had taught me at the Honor Academy are slowly coming to pass, and the first "phase" is coming to pass before my very eyes! He is fulfilling my desires before my eyes, and hopefully, Lord willing, will allow me to return to the region that I love in the Middle East. Selah!
"Great is our Lord, and of great power: his understanding is infinite."
"And Jesus answered him, saying, It is written, That man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God."
It's funny what we as human beings feed ourselves with. For some, food fills the void inside. For other people it is politics and for others, movies, music, sex, etc. But eventually those pleasures will fade. Nothing will satisfy us forever because nothing lasts forever--unless something out there can last forever.
"A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh."
One thing I am concentrating on is filling my mind-body-spirit with things that will matter indefinitely, that will in other words outlast me. If not, our mind will corrupt and eventually we will only have either evil things to offer unto others or nothing "enduring" to give to others. Selah.
"And blessed is he, whosoever shall not be offended in me."
Although so many have (and I once was) offended by the mention of Jesus, looking back over the past couple years, the many blessings he has given me, the thousands upon thousands of answered prayer and the peace that passes all understanding, I am glad I never was. Selah!
"But wisdom is justified of all her children."
May you keep me always seeking wisdom. May you keep me always seeking truth. Amen.
So I am currently home in the Carolinas with my parents which is great (I haven't seen many of my siblings in a while). I talked to my sister today and found out that she is coming to visit me in less than a week and a half (yeah).
So, after I graduated I went "clubbing" (not really, just a bunch of Alumni friends just partying and having a great time swing and salsa dancing). I was able to say goodbye to Jen, Ariella, although I missed Elizabeth and Stacy (but I think my funny face at graduation was good enough). I saw Ben and Josh too, and was able to give a hug to Sarah (who needs a Xanga site). I did not see Katie though, but I think I will shoot her an email though...as well as Kayla and her "Emo Friend." :)
Well, the airport ride was fun, and I look forward to reconnecting with my family again. God has been faithful and has provided for me on numerous occasions today at the airport, unlike no other. I can not wait for the future he has laid down for me, and look forward to...well, I will tell you later. Selah!
So tomorrow I graduate. I, along with several hundreds will enter a hostile world that is bitter towards our worldview. Who will survive? I shudder when I have to think about what many of us will face. My path has been marked by my Maker, I will not surrender, but continue as long as their is breath in me. Selah.
So, graduation is in like three days. I am excited and nervous. Nervous because I am about to leave some of the closest friendships that I ever had before. Excited because I am to embark on an adventure into the unknown. A spiritual exploration of myself you can say.
Well, however you may look at it, I think that this is a good step for me. Although I won't be going to Israel next year, Japan is looking pretty promising. Hopefully I will be able to go to Korea as well (both of them), but that is in the distant future.
I think one thing that I like about myself is that I love to travel and talk. Adventurous living you might say. Why, you might ask? Because we only have one life to live, and we might as well enjoy it. I want to visit several nations (most in the middle east and Asia) and meet different people from around the world. Yeah to travel the world is a dream of mine. A dream that I might see in the future....
So, today I was blessed by a church. More than I ever expected to be. They gave me finances in order to help me get my stuff shipped home. I think that was awesome. If I ever come back to Texas, I think I would come back to visit them. Selah!
"Great is the LORD, and greatly to be praised in the city of our God, in the mountain of his holiness."
So, graduation is around the corner. So is the great "test." Anyways, I went to a wedding today. Two people I knew who were passionate about God got married to each other (they make a cute couple). I wish I had the pictures, but I might upload them later.
I feel like the Lord is pressing three things on my heart for next year. It might come as a surprise, but I do not think I will be going to Israel next year. At least for the summer. But as for now, the answer is a no. I feel like he is telling me not to go. Selah.
But I feel like he is calling me to focus on several other things for next year. These things are:
So graduation is slowly approaching and soon a new class of interns will walk the campus. I am so curious as to what they will be like, who they will influence, what paths they will take. We are all taking our own paths. You must go your path and I must go mine. It is a shame, parting when we have learned so much, grown so much and cried (yes, men do cry--but hopefully not in public) so much this year. The change is incredible. Our change is incredible.
"For the ways of a man are before the eyes of the LORD, and he pondereth all his goings."
How true is that verse. Lord, you are going to have to guide my way. The world is calling me out to explore it--and I do not know if I will be able to fathom the path that you have called me. Selah!
"Wisdom is the principal thing: therefore get wisdom: an with all thy getting get understanding."
I think I like that verse. It speaks volumes. Basically it is saying "Don't be an idiot." I am learning that more and more as I go on through life. Life. Sometimes I wish I could fast forward towards the future. But if I did, would the rewards of tomorrow carry the same value if I skiped today? Selah.
So, today my friend was acquited of his "error." He was slightly punished, but he was not sentenced with the penalty that I feared he would get. Once again, Jesus answered my prayers that he would be preserved from false judgement, despite the odds of him getting dismissed were high. This prayer was answered in about a little under 24 hours. God is great. Selah!
People are the greatest resource. Use it up and it is going to be hard to find replacements. Tonight, I might lose a friend. I understand the circumstances, but do not accept the consequences. Consequeces for perceived actions are louder than words I guess, and speak more volumes than truth.
Today started off on a merry note and ended on a merry note. Sourness was in the middle. If it was a sandwich, it would have been chicken. So for now, God bless my friend and I will see you on the other side. Selah!
That is how much time it took for the prayer to be answered. Approximately 36 hours before Jesus answered this prayer. My finances. He took care of them for me. I am never ceased to be amazed at how many doors he opens and closes, constantly redirecting me for my future benefit. Selah.
"Yea, if thou criest after knowledge, and liftest up thy voice for understanding;"
"If thou seekest her as silver, and searchest for her as for hid treasures;"
"Then shalt thou understand the fear of the LORD, and find the knowledge of God." ~Proverbs 2:3-5
Yes, Jesus helped me out today. I would post more, but I don't want to bore anyone with the details. Selah!
This is going to be short, but today was a good day. A bunch of my friends reported successes with whatever situation they were in. Although I will not name names, I am glad because they were and answer to prayer.Selah!